Today is the one week mark of being a wife, again. How is it different the second time around? Steve and I have discussed this a lot in the past 15 months of being together. How our experiences have changed us, made us better, and what we learned about ourselves and marriage in general. I know my weaknesses and insecurities and so does he, and I his. It is nice that we have been so open about our past experiences, and the emotions involved. I woke up the first two morning as a married women, and although I felt extremely happy, I also felt extremely scared. It was strange. I didn't expect to feel that way. I talked about it with Steve- I can talk to him about anything and he understands and is never angry. I love him for that. The time we spent together over the weekend was priceless, the way we can talk for hours and how the time flies by amazes me. I always feel better after talking to him. I began praying for the confidence in marriage that is required to be successful together. I know the Lord understands my fears, and I know Steve does too. It was nice to feel understood. It was even nicer to feel the love and commitment of my amazing husband.
A week has passed, my heart has prayed continually and I have allowed my mind to reflect without analyzing and trying to "fix" myself. It worked. Sometimes just letting ourselves accept who we are is beneficial in understanding what results and actions will best benefit us. Today, 7 days after saying the "I do's", and promising myself to this man, my confidence in marriage is soaring, my love for my husband and children has deepened, and my testimony in the eternal plan is clear. Marriage truly is ordained of God and my Heavenly Father knows and loves me and has blessed me beyond measure, beyond anything I could previously had hoped for or expected. I am happily, completely, and devotedly married to a man that Heavenly Father put on this earth for me. I know it. I love him beyond words.
Life as a wife, is again, life as it should be.
